"serving leftovers to a Holy God"

"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water. I have seen you in the sactuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of food; with singing lips my mouth will praise you." - Psalm 63:1-5

I just need to vent for a little minute. I'm upset with myself... really... I don't know why I couldn't see this before now. I started reading the book "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan for our Premier Bible Study. I absolutely love our Bible Studies and they all change my life in some way. This book though--- has really changed my heart. I'm not even finished with the book yet and already I know my life is changing... for the better.

The author starts talking about being a lukewarm Christian. (something that I would have never really called myself prior to reading this book) As I'm reading this chapter- I start realizing how little focus I am putting on Christ. I get so caught up in our finances, planning our schedules, and working for the Lord that I totally miss what God really wants from me. I am always setting goals- and I love for things to be planned out. I am a really good person. I hate to break the rules (I've just always been like that) and I do truly love God. But do I truly act like I am in love with God? Not by necessarily doing bad things-- but just not always choosing Christ first.

"Jesus Christ didn't die only to save us from hell; He also died to save us from our bondage to sin." Jesus says, "I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." (John 10:10) That is talking about in this life... the here and now. So why do I put so much focus on how much money we make or what plans we have going on. All I need to focus on is falling in love with Christ- and he will give me life abundantly. That is such a freeing thought.

I never want to become complacent  in my walk with Christ, I never want to think I'm good enough so that I don't need Christ, and I never want to forget what He did for us. I want to remember that I am fully dependent on Him. I want to think of Christ first, give Him my best, and never serve Him my leftovers.